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Ndifuna ukukuxelela namhlanje ngothando lomntu odumileyo-uAlexander Herzen, umbhali, oonobumba, ifilosofi, uguquko.
Kwiminyaka eyi-1835 ekude, emva kweenyanga ezininzi entolongweni, u-Alexander Herzen wathunyelwa eVatatka. Ubomi bokubanjwa kwe-Herzen kwiPhondo leVatatka ludlulileyo iminyaka emithathu, kuthatha ixesha elide ukuqonda ukuba ebomini bakhe kukho uthando lobomi bonke-umzala wakhe uNatasha Zakharina.
Ukubhekisela kuViatka kwandinceda le ndoda ukuba ikhule ibe yindoda ekhulile, mhlawumbi ngaphandle kwexesha lobomi bayo, besingayizazi umlobi onetalente kunye noluntu olulandelayo emva kokuba abe nguHerzen.
Ngaloo uphondo uHerczen wasabela ngokunyaniseka, ehleka ngokuhleka kwimihlali yabemi bephondo, ngokugculela ngamacandelo ama-Vyatka, amahlebo kunye nokugqithisa. Ubomi bezentlalontle kunye neenkcubeko zazivelele kwi-acrid irony. U-Herzen wabiza uViatka ngokuthi "i-swamp", kwaye akumangalisi, ngenxa yokuba i-"guest" yasekuhlaleni ifikelele ekuphumeni kweRashiya ngenjongo yokuzonwabisa, ukulungelelanisa imithendeleko nokucebisa abafazi. Kungekudala i-provincial boredom ihlasela uHerzen, kuba apha akakwazanga ukutshintshisa iingubo zokugqoka zangaphandle. Kuyathakazelisa ukuphawula ukuba ngaphezu kweendleko zefashoni, uHerzen wazisa naye kwiibhokisi zeVatka ngewayini elikhanyayo kunye nemali eninzi. Ngubani ovela kubantu abatsha abangathandi ukusela!
U-Natalia Zakharyina wayesazi malunga nokuzonwabisa kunye nezilingo zika-Aleksandriya, kodwa wayengenakunceda, wafumana amandla okumela umthandi wakhe, kuba wabhala iileta ezivela entliziyweni malunga neemvakalelo zakhe. Wamthiya ngelosi yakhe yobuhle obuhle.
Ewe, uthando lukaHerzen lwalukhulu kwaye luqinile. U-Natalia - wayeyinjongo yakhe, apho wayefuna ukubuyela nayo ngamandla akhe onke. Kodwa kwiikhilomitha ezininzi ezivela eMoscow, ukunyaniseka kwakunzima, iimvakalelo zokomoya. Njengoko bethetha, ii-hormone zithatha umthwalo wazo. U-Herzen wayenabanye abafazi abaninzi.
Igumbi elincinci likaHerstene laliye landa ngokugqithiseleyo njengomdaka obunxilisayo, kuba yonke iminihlwa kwakukho enkulu, inomsindo, udakwa. "Ingxolo yezobugugu iyandikhumbuza ukunxila kolutsha, apho imibono ephakamileyo yayiphupha, njengengwenya," - kwiileta zakhe uHerzen wayezilungele ukuziphatha kukaNataliya kunye naso sonke isikhathi esithembisa ukuba ukusela, kwafika kusihlwa " ngabahlobo ", kwaye kwakhona uVuatka ubusuku wayeshukunyiswa ngemisindo ephakamileyo yomthendeleko endlwini kaHerzen. Kwaye uNatalia osemncinane wayelinde intanda yakhe ekuthinjweni ...
Uninzi lweenveli zenziwe nguHerzen eVatatka, abaninzi babo babemangalisa kwaye baxhatshazwa kwisixeko sephondo. Inkunzi "Lovelace" yajikeleza ngekhono intloko kungekhona nje i-vyatchankam encinane, kodwa iVatka matron. Ukuvakalisa ngokukodwa ukuvakaliswa kwakhe kunye nomfazi wegosa. Ukuthandana kwabo kwakunzima, kwaye kwenzeka ukuba loo ntokazi ngokukhawuleza yaba ngumhlolokazi. Emva koko uHerzen wagqiba ekubeni angene emanzini kwaye akazange amtsate. Uluntu lwentombi ludle. U-Herzen wasinda kulo mqathango ongeyantlukwano ngeemeko ezimnandi - ekupheleni kwe-1837, emva kwesigqibo sika-Alexander II, wathatyathwa yindawo yokuthunjwa, wathunyelwa eVladimir.
U-Natalia wayesazi ngokukhohlisa kukaHerzen, kodwa uthando lokwenene lwazi ukwazi ukunyamezela nokuxolela. Ukuthandana kwabo kwakuyintando, inhle, nje ngeencwadi ezinxulumene nothando. U-Natalia wayenguHerzen isiqhamo esicacileyo nesona sihlambulukileyo kwihlabathi. Kwaye akuvumelekanga yini ukuxolela umntu konke ngenxa yokuba unobuthixo kuye?
U-Natalia noHerzen batshata ngokufihlakeleyo, bengayifumani imvume yomzali yomtshato. Ngenxa yothando lwabo, kwakungekho mida yoluntu. Bonke ubomi babo bahlala ndawonye.
Uthando lwencwadi luyabantu bangempela. Funda ukuxolela nokonwaba!