Mna, ndihamba ngamandla, ndihamba ngekridi, ndizama ukuqonda apho umntwana uyakhala khona. Nkosi, kutheni ukhalela kangaka? Ayikwazi ukuba abasebenzi abazange bakuve. Yaguquka ngekona - izityela ezintle zathatha indawo ye-linoleum ephakade, ukukhanya kwiporriyali yaba ngandlela-thile. Ngaba ndaya kwelinye isebe? Cha, kubonakala kufanayo - ukubeleka. Ukukhala kwakubonwe ngamamitha ambalwa kude nam, ndavula ngokucacileyo umnyango wamagumbi, ndikulindele ukukhwaza: "Mama! Apha akunakwenzeka! "- kwi-postpartum ngokungqongqo. Kwaye ukuba uye wabuyela ebusweni baseSoviet - iplasta ephahliweyo kwilayili, iindonga ezenziwe ngeoli. Kwaye ukuphosa okungenakunqandwa - ukungabi nantoni, ukutya esibhedlele, intlungu yomnye umntu. Umongikazi osemdala unomthwalo ophethe ipoliti phantsi. Kwiwindow, kwinqwelo yeoli yekhefu ngaphandle kwekhadi, waguqa, wabeka umntwana oze kwaye wamemeza. UNanya, engamthobeli, waphonsa i-rag kwibhakethi waza waya emnyango. Ndimbambe ngomkhono: Uya kuphi na? Yenza into! Biza unina! Nguwuphi umama? Ukhululiwe namhlanje, "umhlengikazi waphendula. Kwaye, kubona ukumangaliswa ebusweni bam, wathi: "Uhlulekile." Uthe ukuba sele sele sithathu, akukho nto yokutya oku. UDura-baba, malunga nantoni na? Ngaba ndinokuzama ukumnciphisa? Ewe, ngenxa kaThixo, "umongikazi wagxininisa ngokungahambelani waza washiya, ehudula iphopho emva kwakhe. Kwinqanaba elingaphambili emva kwakhe kwakunomkhondo omanzi. Lindela ngomzuzu! Ngubani igama lakhe? Hayi, "watsho ngaphandle kokujika. "Baya kumthabatha umntwana ekhaya-baya kubizwa khona." Ndamthabatha le nkwenkwana, wavula umlomo wakhe ukhathala waza wamemeza amanqindi amancinci. Kodwa, ukufudumala, kwancipha kancinci ... "U-Lena wakhulisa amehlo akhe ezele amehlo:" Kwandiphazamisa. Ndandulala uMasha, ndandisoloko ndonwabile, kwaye ngokukhawuleza lo mntwana. Ezi cuckoos kufuneka zidubule! Ubungayi kubona into emangalisa ngayo le nyana! Kwaye ndakhala kakhulu, njengokuba ndiziva yonke into ... "
UOlga nomngane wakhe uLenka babehleli ekhitshini lam. Waqhekeza iiyure ezimbalwa ukusuka kwintombi entsha. Ndathula, ndibetha ngenyameko isisu sam esikhulu. UNaum wathintela unyawo lwakhe amaninzi ngamaxesha wangena ngaphakathi. Kutheni le ntokazi ikhetha ukunika ubomi umntwana wayo? Ngaba wayebuhlungu? Ngaba ukhathazeke ngempilo yakho, enokubangela ukukhipha isisu? Wacinga ntoni xa eqonda ukuba ukhulelwe? Usuvele unabantwana abathathu, kodwa njani oku kubi ngaphezu kwabo badala? Wamgatya umntwana wakhe, wamshiya enobumba wedwa kwinqwelo yeoli. Ubisi ebantwini buya kutshisa ngokukhawuleza, ngokukhawuleza, ngokucacileyo, uya kukhupha ngaphandle kwentloko yakhe zonke iingcamango ngaye. Ungumphambukeli kuye. Umntwana ongeyena. Ndandisondele ukuzala kwaye ndingaziqondi: njani inkazana inokuyenza le nto? Kwiinyanga ezithoba zambethe umntwana phantsi kwentliziyo. Enyanisweni ngeli xesha, akukho nto ayengazange ayive, akazange acinge: "Uya kuba njani u-Olga? Ngaba kuya kuba ngathi? Uza kuhleka okanye athukuthele? Ngokuqala ngantoni na kuthiwa "Mama"? "Ndaqalisa ukuthetha nendodanami xa ubukho bakhe abuzange buqondwe. Kwaye ndazi ngokuqinisekileyo ukuba iya kuba yinkwenkwe. Andizi apho. Ngaphambili wayemi kunye neenenjini ezandleni zakhe waza wabuhlungu. Ndithi kumyeni wam: "Siza kuba nendodana, makhe sikhethe igama." Sizungezwe zichazili. Kwakumnandi kakhulu: zingaphi amagama amnandi kwihlabathi! Sifuna igama lendodana lingabonakali, likhethekileyo. Xa ndikhetha, ndazibamba ndicinga: Ndivuya. Ngokuqinisekileyo. Ukungqinelani. Ukukhethwa kwegama kuthatha imihla embalwa emangalisayo. Ekugqibeleni wanquma ukubiza uNaum. Kwaoko ndaqalisa ukuthetha nendodana yam ngegama: "Ewe, Naum, unjani? Masiphulaphule umculo, uNaum. Ngokukhawuleza siya kubona omnye ... "Kutheni le nto ibhinqa lazikhupha? Ngaba wayenako ukubiza umnina wakhe, nangengqondo? ULeela wabeka indebe phantsi etafileni waza wathi: "Uyazi, kwandenza ndiveke: nje amanyathelo ambalwa awayuka kuye oomama banonwabileyo nabantwana abonwabileyo, kwaye yena yedwa, kungekhona negama. Kwaye ndithi kuye: "Kutheni ungenawo uMatveyka kunye nathi?" Khawucinge nje, wambamba ngomnwe wam, wenyamekela! Ngomso ndamthabatha uMasha ndaza ndamthabatha ukumxelela uMatvey. Ndithi: "Khangela, yintoni inkwenkwe enhle", kwaye ukhangele amehlo akhe. Ngomhla wokukhutshwa kwakhe, u-Olga waya kuMatvey yodwa. Wayejonga kuye, elele, ecinga: Ndiyazi indlela yokusebenza. Kodwa andinakukwenza oku. Ndingumama osebenzayo, kufuneka ndijamelane nomntwana omnye. Ewe, ndinomyeni nabazali. Kodwa umntwana unobomi ... Hayi, andinako. Kwaye inkunzi, njengokuqonda konke, yawela kwiinyembezi ezibuhlungu ukuba ndibaleke, andinakukuthwala. Xa ndishiya, ndagijimela kwidokotela wamazinyo. Into yokugqibela eyayiva yindlela yakhe yokukhohlisa: "Hayi, ngokuthula, Matveika, ngokuthula." ULeela wayemomotheka ngokukrakra, iinyembezi zaphuma emehlweni akhe ngaphandle kokuyeka. Kwiminyaka emininzi idlulile ukususela kuloo busuku, kodwa andiyilibali ibali likaLena malunga neMatveika. Ngeli xesha, unyana wam wazalelwa. Ndiyathanda kakhulu igama lakhe, nangona abantu bengaphenduli kuye ngendlela endilindele ngayo. Xa siphuma siye kwi-sandbox kwaye sicinge ngathi, mama, singalindelanga ukubuza ngqo malunga nobuzwe, banomdla ngokuqaphela:
- Yaye yintoni igama eliphakathi likaNaum?
- Alexandrovich.
- Hayi, kuhle.
Xa ndandingakwazi ukuma kwaye ndabuza kwakhona:
"Kwaye ukuba kuvela ukuba thina singamaYuda, awuyi kukuvumela ukuba umntwana wakho adlale nathi?"
- Akunjalo, akunjalo, awuqondi, - umama waphendula waza wathatha intsana yakhe kwicala.
Abantu abanqabileyo bafikile, kodwa ndiseduze noNaum kwaye ndihlala ndichazela oko ndimele ndithobele ingqalelo, kwaye yinto enokuhleka ngayo. Amanyathelo okuqala, amagama okuqala-ndazama ukungaphuthelwa umzuzu oxabisekileyo wobuntwaneni bakhe. Kwaye yonke into uNaum alala ngayo ezandleni zam, ndiyakhumbula i-refusenik Matveika. Uphi na ngoku? Yintoni ephosakeleyo kuye? Ngubani igama lakhe ngoku? Kwaye bangaphi babo kwilizwe lethu - elincinane nelingenalusizo? Ngakumbi ndazibhaptiza kwilizwe lonyana wam, ngakumbi xa ndaqonda: kufuneka kwenziwe into. Bonke abantwana badinga uthando, ngaphandle kwabo bakhule banobuthakathaka, nokuba bahlala bephilile ngokwenyama. Ndazibuza yona le mibuzo engapheliyo, kwaye ubomi buphosa iimpendulo. Umhlobo wam uLena Alshanskaya waba ngumongameli weengxowa-mali "Amavolontiya ekuncedeni izintandane." Amabali abantwana abashiyiweyo, abaye bapapashwa rhoqo kwiwebhsayithi yakhe, bandigxotha kwi-rut: thina, abadlali, sinengcamango ecacileyo. Ndayeka ukuya kwimikhosi kunye namaqela omphakathi. Ndiyakwenza njani ukuncwina apho, ukhanyise kwiingubo ezintle, ukuba kukho into enjalo! Iimvakalelo zika-Olga zafuna ukuphuma, isenzo. Ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiququzelele iziganeko zothando xa nithanda izintandane. Kwaye umntu angenza yedwa, athande abahlobo aze afune abancedisi ngezenzo zangexesha elilodwa, kodwa bonke abaxhasi bavakalisa ibinzana elibalulekileyo "iakhawunti yokuhlawula." Ngenxa yoko, ndasisiseko sam isiseko "Iingqungquthela zekamva". U-Olga wenyuka kunye nemidlalo emininzi yokuqeqeshwa kwengqondo kwaye wamisela omnye wabo kwisikhokelo soMkhosi weRussia wokuqala wezothando "Iewadi zeKamva". Uyenze e-Adygea. Ngesicelo sam uncedo, uMongameli weRiphabliki kunye neKhabhinethi yeeNgqungquthela ziphendule. Bathandana nabantwana apho, ii-Circassia abazilahli abantwana babo ngokusemthethweni, baninzi bashiywa - bangabantwana baseRashiya. Ndazibona zonke kwiinkedama ezintlanu kwi-republic. Emva kokuba ndaya kwi-orphanage eyaziwayo yaseMoscow kunye nezipho - ukuvuyisana nezingane ngoNyaka omtsha. Kwaye ngobusuku bobusuku eNaum, ubushushu buye buya kuma-40. Yintoni endiyenzayo? Ukukhansela uhambo? Ikoyiko kukuba abantwana, ukuba andifiki, akuyi kumangaliswa. Baye basebenzisa into yokuba abantu abadala bayakhohlisa baze bawashiye. Ubusuku bonke ndihamba ngeenxa zonke, ndagubha uNaum ezandleni zam. Ekuseni, ukuqinisekisa ukuba uphelele, wahamba. Kwaye ngelixa ndandingenangxaki yokuhamba kweNtshukumo yokuNyaka omtsha, ndacinga ngandlela-thile: "Ubani ogcina uMatveyka ezandleni zakhe xa egula?" Umfanekiso ombi awuzange usuke ekhanda: inkwenkwe encinci, efana nendodana yam, ilala phantsi kwengubo yombuso kwaye ikhukhumele ukukhwehlela. Ndagqiba kwelokuba: kungekudala iiholide zidlulile, ndiya kuzama ukukufumana. Umntu wokuqala ndidibene naye kwigumbi lokunikezela wayengumongikazi enesiphelo ezandleni zam. Ngaba ndimele ndimbuze? Nangona ngaphaya kweminyaka emininzi yabantwana bazalwa apha, akayikhumbuli.
"Kwiminyaka emihlanu edlulileyo kwakukho umfana onqatshelwe, wayethiwa nguMatveiks," Ndaqala ukungabaza. "Mhlawumbi, khumbula?"
"Ndiyakhumbula-ndiyakhumbula," umhlengikazi wenyusa intloko yakhe, "yinkwenkwe enhle, kwaye sasingenayo enye iMatyeyev." Nawe ukuba yintoni?
"Ngaba uyazi ukuba uya kuphi?"
"Ngoko bamthabatha."
"Kwindlu yomntwana?"
- Hayi, kwintsapho. Ibhinqa lafika nomyeni wayo yamthabatha. Uyazi, wayithatha, wayicinezela kuye ... Ngoko akazange avume ukuba ndikhange ezandleni zakhe kwakhona. Ndadumala ngoxolo: "Ndiyabulela uThixo, umntu wenza oko, kwangelo xesha andinjalo."