Ukuzalwa ngokusebenzisana kwamahhala

Xa ndikhulelwe, ngandlela-thile ndandingacingi ngokuzalwa okuzayo, ixesha lifutshane kwaye andingazi kakuhle kakuhle imeko yam. Kodwa ngokuthe ngcembe, kunye nokukhula kwesisu, ukuqonda ukuba kungekudala ndiya kuba ngumama, kwaye indoda yam, ngokulandelanayo, utata, yanda ngakumbi. Ngenye indawo ngenyanga yesi-5 ndaqala ukucinga ngokubeletha. Ndathenga amaphephancwadi kumama, ndafunda iincwadi kwaye ndathetha nge-intanethi ngamantombazana ayenamagama afanayo nam. Ewe, ndafunda ezininzi izinto ezintsha, kwaye ke, kamva, kwandinceda kakhulu. Kodwa ukwesaba kwam ukubeleka kwakungeke kukhishwe.
Kwinqanaba xa ndizilimaza ndivele ndingenangqiqo, ndafunda ngokuzala ngokubambisana nomyeni wam. Ndiyathembela kakhulu indoda kwaye xa ndihamba nayo okanye ndiye, andiyiki into. Ndazama ukuthetha naye ngenyameko. Andikwazi ukuthetha ukuba wayenomdla wokuza kuzalwa, kodwa andizange ndive ukulahla kwinqanaba. "Ewe, makenze isigqibo sokuba ngokwakhe," ndagqiba kwelokuba.
Xa ndithwele inyanga ezintandathu, ndazala umntakwabo. Wayebeletha. Mhlawumbi, ukunxibelelana nalo mbhangqwana kwathonya kakhulu isigqibo somyeni ukuba abe nam okanye kungekhona ngexesha lolu hlobo lwenkqubo ebalulekileyo.

Ukwandisa, saqala ukuthetha ngendlela eya kundinceda ngayo ngexesha lokubeletha. Xa iingcebiso zabafazi zaqala izifundo zokulungiselela le sakramente, indoda yahamba nayo kunye nam. Bonke ootitshala bezi zifundo bafaka umyeni wam njengomzekelo. Kwaye ndandiziqhenya ngaye.
Izihlobo kunye nabantu ababaziyo basicinga kakhulu kule "ntlupheko", njengoko bezithetha. "Ekuzalweni, indoda ayiyiyo." "Uya kubona yonke into - kwaye ushiye." "Uyakuphanga ubomi bakho besondo ngonaphakade." Kwaye akusiyo uluhlu olupheleleyo lwebali ezibuhlungu ezasisongelayo.
Ndandiyinyamezela ixesha lam, okanye kunoko, lafakwa kum ngokungalunganga. Ngenxa yoko, ukuzalwa kwam kwaqala malunga neveki ezimbini emva kwexesha elilindelekileyo. Emva koko, xa kwakunzima ukukholelwa ukuba ndiza kuzalwa.

Kodwa akukho mntu ukhulelwe ngonaphakade, kwaye andiyi kuba yinto ehlukile. Ngenye imini, ukulwa kwaqala. Ngokukhawuleza xa umyeni wakhe efumene ngale nto, ngokukhawuleza wathi namhlanje siya kuhamba kakhulu, ukuze umntwana ahlawule ngokukhawuleza. Yonke ixesha lokuqala lomsebenzi lalisetyenziswe ezinyaweni zethu, sihamba esitalatweni, siphelisa zonke izinto eziyimfuneko.
Xa iimfazwe zade zibuhlungu kakhulu, kwaye andinalo amandla okucinga malunga nantoni na, umyeni wam waphinde wahlola iibhegi kwisibhedlele sokubeletha, nokuba yonke into ikhona. Emva koko wabiza iteksi kwaye sasiya esibhedlele.
Lapha ndivele nje ndingayazi into engayenza ngaphandle kwayo! Wathatha ngokupheleleyo inkqubo yokuzivumela. Andizange ndibe nexesha lokuphendula imibuzo yabahlengikazi emsebenzini. Umyeni wam waphendula.
Wathenga onke amayeza kunye neempahla ezifunekayo ekuzalweni. Wandinika amanzi. Wacima isithukuthezi sam ebunzini lakhe, elalihamba ngesichotho. Ilawulwa ukuba ndiphefumule ngokufanelekileyo. Uncedise ukuba ndixhamle kwi-ballball. Kwaye, ewe, wayexhasa ngamazwi.

"Hayi, unako, ndiyakholwa kuwe"; "Kancinci, kwaye ummangaliso wethu uya kuba nathi"; "Mncinci, yonke into iya kulungeleka!" - wandixela. Kwaye ndazi ukuba yonke into yayiya kulungile. Ngaphandle koko, akunakwenzeka. Kwaye ukuqinisekiswa kwale nto kwandinika amandla.
Umyeni wakhe wanikela ngenjongo yokuphuma ngaphandle, kodwa wayefuna ukuhlala. "Andiyi kumshiya ngaloo mzuzu!", Watsho. Umyeni wam waphefumulela kunye nam, wathi xa ndiphosa, kwaye xa kungenjalo, wayebambe isandla sam, wandincedisa nangendlela enokwenzeka.

Intombi yazalwa 2 iiyure emva kokufika esibhedlele, inempilo kwaye iqinile. Odokotela bathi mna nomyeni wam sazala ezimbini. Ukuba abafana abanobuchule bokwenene xa bebeletha, kwaye abaphazamisi, banye. Yaye indoda yam kule "iinqununu" ngaphambili.
Ubomi bethu buchaphazela njani ukuba sinokuzalwa kwamaqabane? Ndiza kuphendula: idibene. Enye into enhle - indoda yam yabona ukuba kwakungekho lula ukuzala, kwaye okokuqala, ngelixa kwakunzima kum, ndathatha phantse zonke iinkxalabo zendlu kunye nokunakekela umntwana. "I-diaper yokuqala yatshintshile intombi yam!" - Uyazibonga wonke umntu kude kube ngoku. Kwaye kwimeko yobomi ngokwesondo akukho nto ishintshile.
Andizange ndizisole malunga nokuzalwa kwethu okuhlangeneyo. Kwaye umntwana wesibini, masihambe kunye!