"Ukukhulelwa, amabali malunga nokubeletha" yintloko yesihloko sethu samhlanje, apho ndiya kukuxelela malunga namava omhlobo wam.
Nasi malunga neenyanga ezilisithoba zokukhulelwa kwam sele ziphelile, kwaye ekugqibeleni kokugqibela umjobi wezilwanyana wandixelela: "Yonke into, phakamisa isikhwama, lungiselela ngengqondo, olunye usuku kufuneka lubele!". Ndaya ekhaya ndivakalelwa kukuba ndiza kudibana nomntwana wam, eli xesha elide lokulinda liza kufikelela ekupheleni. Kodwa xa ndaqonda kwaye ndaqonda ukuba ndiza kuzala ngokukhawuleza, ukuvakalelwa kwenkqubela yancinci kwathatyathwa yinto ehluke ngokupheleleyo. Ndabona ukuba ndandesaba kakhulu. Ngokukhawuleza ndalibala zonke izinto ezimnandi ezahamba kunye nam ezi zinyanga zithoba. Uvuyo lokuqala xa ndifumanisa ukuba ndikulindele umntwana; ilungiselelo labantwana; ukuthenga iimpahla zentsana; kukhetha igama. Intloko yaxutywa ingcamango eyodwa - ukuzala, ibuhlungu kakhulu!
Ndiloyiko uhlobo lweenkomo kunye nentlungu. Yaye wayesaba intlungu yokuzalwa, nangona wayefuna ukuzala ngokwemvelo. Uloyiko lwam lubuye lukhuthazwe ngokubukela ngexesha leendidi ezininzi zefestile apho umfazi ekuzalweni kwakhe kufuneka akhale (akakhange amemezele, kodwa umlenze wonke ixesha). Ewe, kunye nabamantombazana "abalungileyo", bonke abantu bahlala kunye ngeenkcukacha, ukuba kwakubuhlungu njani ukunyamezela, kwaye kube nini isihogo siqhubeka, esingapheliyo nangaphawuleki.
Konke oku, okwenene, akuzange kwongeze kwithemba lami nesimo sengqondo esifanelekileyo. Kodwa awukwazi ukuya esibhedlele ngokuguqa ngamadolo. Ndiloyiko lwam kufuneka ndiyenze into. Kwaye iintsuku ezimbalwa ezishiywe ndimele ndifunde iincwadi ezahlukeneyo ekukhangela amagama athandekileyo "ukuzala akulimazi." Ngokuqinisekileyo, andizange ndifumane into enje, nangona kunjalo, ndisaqinisekisa ulwazi malunga noshintsho, amabali ngokubeletha. Andizange ndibalekele uloyiko lwentlungu, nditshintshe okanye ndingacingi nje. Ngokuchasene noko, ndagqiba ekubeni ndiyicinge kwaye ndibeke phezu kwamashalofu. Kwaye oko ndikufumene.
Okokuqala, ndamkela ndaza ndaqonda ukuba ndiza kuba ndibuhlungu. Ewe, kwakungekho nanye kwimeko apho umfazi wazalwa engenabuhlungu. Kodwa! Ngomqondo wangempela welizwi, akuyi kubakho intlungu engenakulibala. Ewe, kuya kuba buhlungu, kodwa, kwakhona, ukunyamezela. Emva koko, umntu ngamnye uyingqayizivele ngendlela yakhe kwaye nganye inomda wayo wobuzwe. Kwaye ndingaqiniseki ukuba kuwo wonke umntu onokhenkethi Uhlobo luya kunika ubunzima obukhulu njengokuba oku okanye okuya kukwazi ukunyamezela. Akukho.
Kule ngongoma, unokwazi ukubheka indawo yenkolo, ethi uThixo uyamthanda wonke umntu. Sonke senziwe nguMdali, kwaye uyasithanda sonke ngokulinganayo. Ukubeletha kuyinkqubo eboniswe nguYe. Yena, njengoMdali onothando, akayi kubathumela abantwana bakhe, nje ukuhlupheka okungenakubekezeleka. Kungenjalo, yonke imbono yothando, apho inkolo isekelwe khona, sele idalulwe.
Kwaye kwindlela yokujonga ngonyango, umntu unokuthi inyama ngayinye inikwe "inkqubo ye-analgesic" elawula ukuvalelwa kwentlungu. Ukuba iba buhlungu kakhulu, ke izinto ezifana ne-morphine ziqala ukukhutshwa, ezinciphisa iintlungu zomzimba. Kukho nje nge-anesthesia ezizimeleyo.
Okwesibini, ndaqonda ukuba ndiyesaba kakhulu ukufa ngexesha lokubeleka, njengoko kwakunjalo kwi-Middle Ages. Kodwa nangona kunjalo, ukwesaba kwangoko kwanyamalala ekugqibeleni ukuba inzululwazi kunye neteknoloji sele zihambe phambili. Emva kwam iya kuba ngabachwephesha abaqeqeshekileyo abaya kuphawula, ukuba kukho into ehambileyo, kwaye ngexesha liza kunika uncedo oluyimfuneko.
Okwesithathu, ndayeka ukuphulaphula onke amantombazana "ayenomusa" ayenabo "abakho-nza!", Ukugqiba ukuba ndiza kuhluka zonke, kuba ndazilungele ngokwengqondo. Imvakalelo emihle isele idibene kunye novavanyo olunzima. Kwaye ibali lomnye wabamelwane bam, obengumhla wokuzalwa, bebukele ifilimu malunga nabasetyhini abahlanjululwa yi-fascists kwiinkampu zoxinzelelo ngexesha leMfazwe ePhambili ye-Patriticism, kwandikhokelela kwimbono yokuba ndizenzele "uhlobo lomncintiswano weentlungu", ezingayi kuba nzima ukuxhatshazwa. Kulo mzekelo, ummelwane, xa ephelelwe yimpi, wayecinga ukuba abafazi beenkampu babandezeleka ngenxa ye-Motherland yedwa, ngoko wayenokuthi abe nomonde kumntwana wakhe.Kwafuneka ndicinge kunye nendlela yokuyiqonda yonke into ekhankanywe kwangaphambili, kungekudala, ngaphambi kwesiganeko esichukumisayo esenzekile. Kodwa xa kuqale ukulwa, ndaya esibhedlele ngokuzithemba kwaye ndiqinisekile ukuba yonke into iya kulungeleka!