Sekuyiminyaka elishumi ukususela ekubeni ndashiya kwisixeko sam. Ngonaphakade! Ndiyakhumbula xa ndandineminyaka elishumi elinesibhozo ndazama ukucinga ukuba ndiyiminyaka engamashumi amathathu ubudala. Umfanekiso wawunqabileyo (intombi emelekileyo neyakhekileyo ekhanda, kunye nomntwana, i-akhawunti yebhanki kunye nomgcini wendlu), kodwa ... kude kakhulu. Kwaye masinyane mathathu! Kwaye kukho iikhoti, kunye neakhawunti, kunye nomgcini wendlu. Kwaye abantwana banamibini. Kodwa ukuzimela kwangaphakathi akuzange kube yilekhonkrithi eqinisiweyo ...
Ndiphosakele
Umama wayengutitshala. Ngoku ungutitshala, sele ufanelekile. Uziqhenyce nge-regalia, ugcina udibaniso ngaye. Kwaye umama wayengazange abe nekratshi. Andizange ndifanelane nomfanekiso wam nehlabathi elihle "ngeentlungu" zam ekuziphatheni nakumhlobo "ongenakunqanda".
Ndamhlonela umama, kodwa ndandisoyika. Xa "uthisha wasekhaya" wachaza kumhlathi ongaqondakaliyo ukusuka kwincwadi yokufunda, ndandilahleka kwaye ndinoyika ukubonakalisa "ukunyameka" kwam, okuye kwagxinwa kwizinto eziphathekayo. Wazenza ngathi wayeziphethe kakuhle izinto zonke, kwaye wayesekulungele ukufumana ibini - kungekhona ukuba ufumane "iindlela zokufundisa": "Ewe, ungenzi ngathi uyisidenge, uyintombi yam - kwaye ndifanele ndiyazi ngokufana nexesha elidlulileyo. . "
Ndandisoloko ndiqhelekile kwisikolo esiphakamileyo "zonke iingubo zam kum" - kunye nomama ukumela iminqweno nemikhwa, ebenokuyithanda kakhulu. Futhi ungaze uhlanganyele naye ngeengcinga zakhe neemvakalelo zakhe zangempela. Okungakumbi ... Ndade ndafunda ukufihla izifo - kuba unyango lwamama lwalufana ne-drill.
Sisiphi isizathu sokususa le ngcinezelo kwakuyi-entrance kwunivesithi! Umama wenza konke onokukwazi ukuhlala ekhaya, kodwa ke ndafana nedwala. Ndagxuma, ndavuma, ndaza ndawahlalisa iipenki, ndaqokelela isikhwama, ndahlala kwiilayibhrari. Ndahlala kwenye indawo ekupheleni kwelizwe, ndatshatile apha ndaba ngumlingane wam ishishini lam (umama akayibiza nto "ngaphandle ko" shishini "). Andihambi ekhaya ngokuphindaphindiweyo, kwaye umama uyafumana izizathu ezininzi zokundwendwela kwakhona. Ngokuqinisekileyo, andinakulibala ukungenisa umama. Yaye yonke imihla uyanganga, ndiziva ngathi imonmon exutywe ...
Ndiyabonga, kodwa andifuni ukuhlala phantsi. Ndiya kuqhubeka ndihamba ngesitimela. Kwaye le sihlalo ... xelele, unayo ingxaki zemali? Ndiyabona apho kuthengiweyo ... Musa ukuhlazeka, ndinokunceda! Awu, ngaba kulungile kuwe? Hayi! "Enye into enjalo - kwaye yonke into endiyithandayo ngothando yanyuka kwangoko, njengoko inkohliso yatshintsha i-wand." Ewe, ndithenge isihlalo "sitshabalalisiwe" ngesikhangiso - kodwa ndonwabile ukuba ufika egumbini! Umama unetalente ukuba alahle yonke into ebalulekileyo kum.
Ngenxa yabantwana
Into eyona nto ayikho nokuba umama akayithandi yonke into ebomini bam kwaye "ukhaliphile" (kodwa ngokwenene i-pejorative) igxeka, ukusuka ekukhethweni komlingane ebomini ekukhethweni kwesikhafu. Yaye into yokuba ndiqala ukungaqiniseki ngokwam, nangona ndivuyiswa ngokunyanisekileyo malunga nezinto ezazizungeze phambi kwam.
Masithi ndisiya kwintombi yam yokuzalwa kwam. Masha oneminyaka emihlanu ubudala kunye no-Kirill oneminyaka emibili ubudala bahlala nomntwana. "Unina omncinci" bobabini banamathela, izandla zam azanele. Kodwa ke ndafunyanwa ngumbono ongenakucamngca ngumama ... Kwaso kusihlwa-ibali elivela entliziyweni ebonisa ukuba yena ngokwakhe, washiya umhlolokazi, kunye nam kunye nodadewabo bobusuku akazange azalise. Ingcikivo ayikho "ebunzini" - kodwa ngohlobo lweemvakalelo ezincinci zokuthi ndincinci ndibiza njani "mama" ukusuka egumbini lokulala, kuba ndandesaba ukukhanya. Ngokuchasene nale mvelaphi, ukuzola kwam nje kubonakala kuhlambalaza. Ndiyintloni: ndingenakuhlushwa njani kwintsimi yomama? Ndingumama omubi! Iholide iyancipha. Kuyinto engaqhelekanga: kutheni mna, umama okhulile onomphefumlo wakhe, abe njengomvundla phambi komgudu we-boa? Njengokuba bekungekho le minyaka elishumi-kwaye ndisengumntwana wesikolo, nditshitshise yonke into kumama. Nangona "yonke into ilandelelwe", ndiyiphendula, njengokungathi ndifihla intsapho ephukile. Andizimeleyo, kuvela ...