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Kwinqanaba, ndathandana nentombazana emva kokuba andivumile kumsondelene, watshata. Kodwa andiyi ku thembeka ...
Intombazana yam, uthando lwam, "ndandixhalaza ngentshiseko," wam mnandi, ndithandekayo, Tanchka ... "" Yintoni? " Undibize njani? I-scoundrel! Le ntombazana yaqhekeka kwiingalo zam, yaza yawa ngobuso. Andizange ndikwazi ukumbamba isandla sakhe. Ndahlala phantsi komda wokulala ...



"Hamba ..." watsho ngokungathethi . Akazange aziphoqe ukuba acele. Waqokelela izinto ezazisasazekileyo ejikeleze indlu, egqoke kwaye ekhohlo. Xa umnyango wangaphambili waqhawula emva kwakhe, ndawela embhede wam ngasemva ndavala amehlo. "Tanya, ndivakalelwa kakhulu ngaphandle kwakho ..." - ibuhlungu ngengqondo. Ndandisoloko ndikhumbula, ndihlala ndifuna isondo. Rhoqo. Kungakhathaliseki ukuba kuphi, ngubani. Ukuze ukwanelise umnqweno. Konke kwaqala xa ndandineminyaka elishumi elinesithandathu. Njengoko ndiyakhumbula ngoku ngoku: Ndingumfundi weklasi ophumeleleyo, uneminyaka engamashumi amathathu ubudala enesizungu esivela kwibhantshi elingumakhelwane. Ndandidla ixesha elide ndijonge iifom zakhe zezazi kwaye ndathula ngokuthula. Kubonakala ukuba, wabona uphando lwam "olambile" kanye kanye ... wandibuza ukuba ndikuncede ngithwale iibhegi zakhe ezinzima endlwini yakhe. Ewe, ndavuma. Wayemlandela amanyathelo, ezama ukujonga ngaphantsi kwesiketi esifutshane. Andizange ndiyazi ukuba ngemizuzu embalwa ndiza kubona yonke into ... Isiqhamo esinqatshelwe sagqithwa. Wandikhohlisa (ukuba akazange athathe i-initiative, andiyikukhathazeka ukuba ndibambelele kuye nayiphi na into).

Ngoku ndiyayiqonda ukuba ubuhle kunye nam bebuhle. Kodwa ndathandana! Ngoko ke, malunga neenyanga kamva wambamba indoda efanelekileyo ngakumbi kuye ngeminyaka kwaye wanginika ithuba lokubuya esangweni, ndafa phantse ngenxa yokubandezeleka. Umzimba unenkani unyanzelekile ngesondo. Ngakumbi nangakumbi. Iifilimu zoononophala kunye nokukhwabanisa kunceda kakhulu. Abafunda nabo babengazange bandinike. Hayi, kungekhona ngenxa yokuba bebeyintombi (ininzi yabo yayayazi ngesondo lokuqala), ngelixa ndandifunda ummelwane wam, sele befumene izinto ezibubulayo kwaye baxubana nabo eminyangweni.
Yonke into ishintshile kwiziko. O! Ndajonga phezulu. Slept nazo zonke iintombazana ezivela kwiqela lethu (inzuzo yezi zinto ezingasetyenziselwa ukusela izidakwa zinganxila kwaye ... kakuhle ... uyazi ...), kwaye uguqule ukufana. Yilapho iqala ingxaki yokuqala. Imbobo enomdaka othobekileyo ogama linguTanya. Ndingu-onigel (ukubeka ngokuthobeka). Ukunyaniseka, ndandifuna ukulala naye, kuphela ukwenza umntu abe mnandi. Ngubani na oya kumjonga, na? Kwaye ngokukhawuleza ndafumana ukukhuza. Uhlobo lwebhodi lwamanzi abandayo. U-Br-rr ...

Andizi ukuba kwenzeka ntoni, kodwa ndangena kuwo. Kwiindlebe. Wayebona amehlo aluhlaza okwesibhakabhaka njengebhakabhaka (nangaphandle kokwenziwe, kodwa ezintle), iinwele zephiko elimnyama (nangona zingekho iingubo ze-styles eziphathekayo, kodwa zide.) Ndandifuna ukuqhuba i-fiddle kuwo. Ndilahlekelwe yintloko yam. Ndaqala ukubhala izinkondlo, ezibiza ngokuba zingenakulungelelaniswa. Uthe ukuncoma akuzange akholelwe. Ukumlinda ekuphumeni kwiziko kwaye wamlandela waya endlwini. Ngamafutshane, waba ngumthandi onyanisekileyo, onqwenela ukubona ububele bakhe obathandayo. Ewe, ndivuma - ndalala nabangani bakhe ngokufanayo. Ngenye indlela andinako. Ndandifuna ukukhutshwa, ngaphandle koko ndiza kuhambisa ubomi bam. Unyaka udlulile kwaye ... inqaba yawa. Oku kwenzeka xa ndihamba neTanya ekhaya emva kweqela lomfundi.

Sasihamba nge-embankment. Inyanga ibonakaliswe emanzini. Izibane eziqhaqhaqhako zenza imvakalelo yothando. Sayeka phakathi kwebhuloho, sithembele ekuhlaseleni, sibheke emanzini amnyama. Kwaye ndavuma kuye ngothando. Ngokuqala ebomini bam. Akukho nto yam e-eh ... amaqabane amaninzi ezesondo andizange ndithethe amagama anjalo.
Kodwa uTatyana wayengazixabanga ngokomoya. Wayethule njengentlanzi. Emva koko ndambuza ngokuthe ngqo ukuba wayandithanda. Ukuphendula - ukuthula. Akukho sandi esinye. Ngaphandle kokucinga kabini, ndagxuma ngokukhwaza.
- Ukuba ungandithandi, kwaye ukuba andinalo ithuba, ndiza kufike ngoku ...
- Yehla, uhlaziye! - wayethukile, waqala ukundisusa.
Ngaba uyandithanda okanye akunjalo?
"Yehla ngokukhawuleza!"
"Uyathanda okanye akunjalo?"
- Ndiyamthanda, ndiyamthanda, ndiyamthanda!
- Phinda uphakamise, andizange ndive! - wamemeza, evuya emphefumlweni (wafezekisa ngokwakhe!)
"Ndiyakuthanda, kwaye ngoku uyehla ngokukhawuleza!" Ngobo busuku sachitha kunye. Ndaye phezulu.

Wabonakalisa konke ummelwane wam wandifundise.
"Ngaba uyayithanda ngempela?" Wabuza ekuseni. Amehlo akhe, ehlutha emva kobusuku bovuyo, wandixelela yonke into ngaphandle kwamagama. Ndonwabile. I-insanely iyavuya.
Kwiinyanga ezimbini kamva uTanya wakhulelwa. Ngokwemvelo, ndamsondeza isandla sam nentliziyo yam. Ndamthanda ngaphezu kokuphila, nangona kunjalo ... kwakungenakwenzeka. Ndifuna isondo. Ezininzi zesondo. Ngethuba lokuqala ndamguqula ilungelo kumtshato wethu. Ndathatha umhlala-phantsi kunye nentombazana ephosiweyo kwigumbi lamadoda. Kwaye xa siphume khona, sabamba umfazi wam omtsha. Kwakukho ukuthotywa okunjalo ebusweni bakhe ...
Ndaxolisa, ndafunga, ndandisoyika ukuba oku kwakungeke kwenzeke kwakhona. Wathi: Bathi, andiyiqondi into eyenzekayo, le ntombazana indikhohlisile. Andiyazi ukuba uTatiana wayekholelwa ebuxoki bam, kodwa ... waxolela. Andikwazi ukuhlalisa. Kunoko, wayengafuni. Ekusebenzeni, apho ahlala khona emva kwesi sikhungo, wancenga kuqala unobhala wenkosi, ngoko umphathi weentengiso, emva kwakhe-umphathi wezemali. Wazilungisa ngokuthi yonke into ekhaya "nale shishini" ayilungile. Inyanga ngaphambi kokuzalwa, uTanya wasebenzisa esibhedlele (usongelo lokuphazamiseka), emva kokuzalwa kwentombi yakhe, kwakhona, akunakwenzeka. Yaye xa kubonakala ngathi sele isenokwenzeka, umfazi wayenokhathala kakhulu usuku lonke nentombazana yakhe encinane ukuba wayefuna ukulala kuphela. Ngoko ndaya "ecaleni". Ngelo xesha, akazange abe neengxaki zesazela.

Emva koko, isondo asinalo uthando . Andiyazi ukuba eli lide liza kuhlala lini, kodwa kwakukho abafuna ukuthanda "abavule amehlo abo" kuTanya wam. Ndibuyela ekhaya ngandlela-thile, kwaye emgqeni kufuphi nomnyango ukuya kwigumbi kukho isikhwama ngezinto zam ... Esikhundleni sokuwa ngamadolo kwaye ndicela ukuxolelwa, ndi ... hitha yonke into enzima. Nsuku zonke ndadonsa ibhinqa elitsha kumbhede wam. "Ubundlobongela alunakwenzeka." Kodwa abafazi bebedlula ebhedeni lwam, ngaphantsi koko ndandiyithanda. Ngomnye umfazi omtsha, ubunzima bamnyama obuye bakha ngaphakathi kwam ukususela kwimihla yakutshanje. Ngentsasa ndavuswa ngethemba elingenanjongo lokuba ndiza kuvula amehlo ami - kwaye ngasemva komlambo uTanya. Kodwa esikhundleni sakhe ndabona ubuso bomntu. Mhle, kodwa omnye umntu. Kwaye ke kwafika kwintombazana elandelayo ndamthiya igama.
Intombazana yacaphuka. Andizange ndixolise, kodwa wamcela ukuba ahambe. Ubulili obukhulu kakhulu, kwaye ... kwaye ndifuna uthando kunye nokufudumala. Ndifuna ukubona umfazi wam. "Ndivakalelwa kakhulu ngaphandle kwakho, Tanya. Ndixolele, ntanda, ukuba unako ... "