Ukuba ungeke ube ngumama: ukudandatheka okanye yonke into iya kulungile?

Ndiza kuthi kwangoko - Ndingomntu onwabileyo, kuba ndingumama. Kwam, njengoko uNovoseltsev uthe kwi-movie ethi "Office Romance," le nkwenkwana kunye ... zisengumfana.

Kodwa kungekudala, ndacinga ukuba umama sele sele esithathu. Andikhathali ukuba le nkwenkwana yayintombazana okanye intombazana, kwakungeyona nto imangalisayo ukuziva kwakhona njengomama ozayo. Ukukhulelwa, njengabaninzi abafazi, kwakungenakulungiswa, kodwa, oko kuthetha, i-impromptu eqhubekayo. Xa uvavanyo lubonise amabini amabini, ngokunyanisekileyo, kudidekile. Unyana wam omncinci akasekho iminyaka emibini ubudala, ndihamba ngekhefu lokubeletha, iphela iqela lemibuzo sele lifikeleleke - oko kuza kwenzeka ntoni ngomsebenzi, ngaba ndiya kulawula imilinganiselo, "siya kukhangela" umntwana wesithathu ngemali, yiyiphi imvume yokuyenza kwindlu, uya kuthini na umntu ubunzima beento zonke ezandibetha ekhanda.

Kodwa emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa, indalo yazithatha yona: ndiziva ukuba ngaphakathi-ubomi obutsha kwaye kufuneka wenze konke kule nto yavuya.

Kwiveki yesi-7 yokukhulelwa, njengebhotti e-blue, iingxaki zivele: izibonakaliso zesongelo lokukhulelwa kwesisu. Ugqirha wakhawuleza wathuma kwi-ultrasound, apho iziganeko zatsholwa. Bamisela ukuphumla okupheleleyo, "Utrozhestan", "Magne B6" kunye ne-valerian. Esibhedlele akahambanga (akukho ndawo yokubeka umntwana), kodwa wenza ngokunyanisekileyo yonke imiqathango kadokotela. Amantombazana aqhelekileyo ahlala phesheya, aqinisekisiwe, athi, asiyikunyamekela oogqirha bonke, bathi, yonke into yendalo.

Emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa, ukutshatyalaliswa kokusongela kwangama, beziva kakuhle, akenzanga buhlungu naphi na. Ngamafutshane, ndaqiniseka ukuba yonke into iya kulungile. Ngethuba lokunyanga, ndacinga kwaye ndacinga ngento yonke ehlabathini, ndaze ndaqulunqa igama lomntwana (ngesizathu esithile kwakukho into yokuba intombazana yayiza kuzalwa).

Emva kwenyanga emva kokuqeshwa kunye nogqirha, ndaphinda ndinikezwa isikhokelo se-ultrasound ukukhuseleka. Kwaye ndiva ibinzana elibi: "Kodwa sele esaphila. Sekudlulileyo iiveki ezimbini ukususela emva kokuba umntwana ekhulile. " Ndayiva nge-drumbeat entloko yam. Emva koko ndiyakhumbula indlela umyeni endibamba ngayo ... esibhedlele ... i-anesthesia ... i-medabort ... i-antibiotics. Ndimele ndixelele ukuba zonke iintsuku ezi-4 zokuhlala esibhedlele, andizange ndibe nethemba kumalini okanye nasiphi na isimo sengqondo "sokunciphisa" kubo bonke abasebenzi bezonyango. Ndiyabonga kakhulu. Ndiqinisekile ukuba sinogqirha ochwephesha.

Kodwa into eyinqabileyo yaqala kamva. Njengokuba ngaba ndiqonda ukuba yonke into, andikhulelwe. Kwaye kwakubonakala ingcinga ye-inertia malunga nomntwana owayengasekho - indlela yokubiza, indlela yokulungisa ifenitshala, apho unokuthatha imali yonke into. Oko kukuthi, ndiyayiqonda ukuba andiyizihlunu, kodwa umzimba ngenxa yokuqala kweentsuku ezimbini ubambe ngenkani ukuvuma inyaniso. Iingcali zengqondo kule ngxaki zithi "intlungu yokulahlekelwa ngumntwana osinde ixesha elide ulunzima. Into ephambili ngeli xesha akuyikuzivala. Uncedo kwiintsapho kunye neentsapho kufuneka zibe yiyeza eliphambili kwithuba emva kokusweleka. " Yaye iingcali zincoma ukuba izibini ezithandana neentlekele ezinjalo, "musa ukuthula kwaye ungazivali. Sidinga ukuthetha ngakumbi, sabelane ngeengxaki zethu komnye nomnye. "

Iyeza lam liba liyeza lam okanye "i-blocker" yokudakumba. Ndabona ukuba ndibenabantwana ababini abaphilileyo nabaphilileyo, ukuba, nangona kunjalo, badinga uthando lwam, ukunakekelwa kunye nokunyamekela. Yaye mna nomyeni wam sinenhlanhla. Kodwa ndiyakwazi ukuqonda abo bafazi abafuna ukuzala ubuncinane umntwana wokuqala kwaye abanako. Kukho konke kuxhomekeke kwintsapho kunye nabahlobo. Kwaye kubaluleke kakhulu - ukusuka kumfazi. Into ephambili kukuba wenze ukhetho olufanelekileyo: ukuba ungene kwixinzelelo kwaye utshabalalise yonke imbono enokwenzeka kunye nobomi bakho okanye uzenzele ngesandla, tune kwizinto ezilungileyo. Emva kwakho konke, le ngcamango yinto ebonakalayo, ngoko ucinga ntoni na ikamva, oku kuya kuba njalo.

Ndakwazi ukwenza ukhetho olufanelekileyo. Ndiqinisekile ukuba kuya kusebenza kuwe. Emva koko, into ephambili kukuba impilo kunye nentembeko kwikamva.