Yintoni endiyenzayo ngothando? Wam uThixo! Zingaphi ndihlandlo ndidume kuwe La mazwi! Zingaphi iinyawo zam iintliziyo ezincinci! Zingaphi iindihlandlo ndiyifake umlomo wam ukuze ndiyi kulila xa ndiva ilizwi lakhe. Kwaye umphefumlo wam wawubuhlungu. Kwaye konke oku kuqhubeka namhlanje. Kwaye andiyazi into enokuyenza ngothando olungathandabuzekiyo, ngalo lonke usuku nangaphezulu luya kundibamba.
Xa ndandithathile, ndaza ndamxelela yonke into, ngokuphendula, ndakuva, umgangatho: "Ukukhipha isisu." Hayi, andizange ndiyenze, ndathatha umntwana wam, phakathi kwekota ndafumanisa ukuba siya kuba nentombazana kwaye ndandisoloko ndathetha naye, ngokukhawuleza ndacinga ngegama lakhe - uCamilla, ndavuma iingoma zakhe, ndazibetha ngegobolondo yam ndamtshela iindaba ezimnandi, ndamthanda, kwaye ngoku ndiyamthanda. Njengoko, ngokwenene, yena. Okwangoku, oku akumthinteli ukuba aphile naphi na, kodwa kungekhona nathi. Yintoni eyenzeka entloko yakhe, andiyazi, andiyiqondi, kwaye ezi ntlungu ziza kum amehlo. Ndiyazi ukuba yintoni uthando olungathandabuzekiyo, kodwa andinayo into yokuba ndingayenza ntoni na. Yintoni enokuyenza kwimeko enjalo, yintoni oyenzayo.
Uthandana, ulungile, unobumnene, akazange akandixelele igama elibi, ngaphandle kwefusethi - amaxesha ambalwa. Kodwa kuphela emva kobudlelwane naye acinga kakhulu malunga nendlela yokuthenga i-valerian. Ngenxa yokuba akayi kuthi "ewe" okanye "hayi".
Ndiqala ukucinga ngam, malunga naye, malunga nolwalamano lwethu, malunga noko bathetha kuye. Kwaye ngokuphindaphindiweyo ibinzana elithi "uthando olungathandabuzekiyo" lucima ngcamango. Ngaba kunjalo ngokwenene? Uqala ukucinga ukuba ukhona nomntu, kwaye ulapha, yedwa, kunye nomntwana ezandleni zakhe. Kwaye unomama ongatshatanga. Nangona ndingathanda ukucinga ukuba oku akunjalo.
Hayi, sidenge! Ndi xelela. Gubungela! Khangela! Unelungelo lokuphila ngamaphupha awayeza kuza ngalo ngenye imini, uya kuza kuwe, kwaye uya kuhlala kunye kunye, kwaye konke kuya kuba mnandi, kwaye wonke umntu uya kuvuya. Hayi! Oku akunjalo! Ukuphela kothando lwakho lufikile! Akusekho! Uyakondla ukutya kwasekuseni. Bala! Iminyaka emine idlule. Kwaye ahlangani ndawonye. Ngaba le nto enye ayikuxeleli nto na?
Emva kwee-tirades ezinjalo zezwi langaphakathi, kwanokuba iminwe iqala ukuthuthumela. Ihlabathi lihamba ngokukhawuleza liphuma phantsi kweenyawo. Kwaye, ukuba kwakungekho mntwana, ngubani owaziyo oko kuza kwenzeka kum ngoku ...
Ewe, ndiyithandabule uthando, kwaye nento enokuyenza ngayo, andisayi kugqiba. Ndiyazi into enye. Ndine-enchantress enhle, ntombi yam, ubuncwane bam, ongazi nto ngokusuka kwakhe, kunye nendlela unina ahlupheka ngayo ekuqaleni kokuphila kwakhe. Kwaye akanandaba nento enokuyenza ngayo ngothando olungathandabuzekiyo. Into ephambili kukuba umama kufuneka abe khona ukumanga, ukumondla, nokufudumala iimpahla zakhe. Into eyona nto umama wayenayo. Ndimkhangele, kwaye nangona ufana nobawo, intliziyo yam iyaqeqeshwa, kwaye ndithi. Yeka! Yeka ukukhala! Yeka ukugcina uthando lwakho olungathandabuzekiyo! Akukho nto yokwenza! Simele siphile! Umama uthi into efanayo.
Ngakolunye uhlangothi, uThixo uyigwebi lakhe. Ungakhathazeki kakhulu, akufanele umgwebe, ukuba unobuthakathaka kangangokuthi akakwazi ukuthatha uxanduva kubantu abakuzondayo, ngoko kuya kuba nzima kuye ukuba aphile kulo mhlaba, kwaye ngoku into eyona nto endikuyo kukunyamekela intombazana yam encinane. Ndiya kwenza konke ukuze ndimenze avuyiswe, kwaye akaze asinde ubomi endandijamelene nayo, kwaye ngenxa yoko kuyimfuneko ukuphakama ngamadolo kwaye ndiqhubeke-ngokungafani nokuphela kwexesha. Ixesha liya kudlula, amanxeba aya kuphulukisa, intombi yam iyakhula, kwaye ndiya kuvuya - kunye noyise womntwana okanye omnye umntu-ubomi buya kubonisa.